I’m in my mid thirties, and I’m really confused about that. I seriously have no idea how life happened so fast. I used to have a cool funky haircut, and way less children. Always wanting to be a Disney princess, without realizing that the villain role was all mine from the get go. I’m an actress, singer, songwriter, musician, writer, doula, yogi, a wife, and a mother of four. Two boys with autism, one with a third life threatening illness, because life is really fair. YES, I WHINED. I’ve earned the right to do so.
Now ask me how I have time to do all of those things! The truth? I don’t. My therapist told me I have to figure out how to make time. Like literally CREATE TIME. I’m like Dude, if I did that… We’d all be rich and I would not be living in New England. This is like the worst possible place for my son to live. Mostly because of the 9 month flu season, and mold that grows on dead vegetation.
Enough about him, this page is about me. ME! You know, the mom. The one who always puts others first before herself. The one who doesn’t do much for herself at all. With the exception of social media, yoga, and watching tv. My all time favorite show is LOST. Go Watch It. Again. I’m currently on my 11th time around the island, almost ready to begin number 12. No, I never get sick of it. Hippo’s are my spirit animals, and I really love sharks. However you’ll never get me in a shark cage. I can barely go into the ocean without hearing that infamous score.
Yet the ocean is my absolute favorite place to be in the universe. Doesn’t matter where, although I prefer the North Shore of Oahu, Hawaii. The beach just grounds me, and the sound of waves centers my soul. I find the water to be very healing. I’ve been writing since I was in middle school. It started with journaling, morphed into poetry, songwriting, short stories, a book, a script, and this blog. I can’t wait to one day exercise my craft, and publish something! I’m also in the process of becoming a certified Yoga Teacher, and Reiki Healer. I believe that I am an intuitive, and well rounded person who can help others thanks to the cards I’ve been dealt. It’s all about how you play them. I’ve got an amazing poker face. I suffer from PTSD, Anxiety & Depression.
I’m both an optimist, and a realist. It’s a blessing and a curse. I’m very in tune with my surroundings, yet I live in crippling fear. The what if web is a nasty one to get caught up in. I’m totally okay though, and I think that’s because of my optimism, and silliness. I’m a total goober who loves to laugh and have fun. I try my best, and at times I’m extremely hard on myself, but I need to be. I can be so lazy that it’s quite pitiful. I have difficulty finishing things I start, but I’m working on that. Always moving forward, and never looking back. Now It’s my turn to pay it forward. I will start with my personal goal of being a mindset mentor. If I can stay positive through all of this, I’m pretty sure you can too!